And, I have to say, things are changing REALLY fast here.
From big changes to little ones (such as last week finding out one of my favorite Zumba instructors quit unexpectedly, and then yesterday finding out my chiropractor/acupuncturist is closing his practice at the end of the year).
House still in chaos over the remodel. Things shifting personally and in the business.
Uncle! I’m ready for a break!
Like I wrote about yesterday in The Writer’s Life — my biggest problem right now is trying to sort through everything and figure out what I’m being called to do. There are times where I’m just exhausted and want to just be — how do I honor that when I feel like I have such small pockets to get work done in between everything else I have going on? But I don’t want to force things either — that’s how I got in trouble before.
It’s the whole balancing feminine energy and masculine energy. (Which, on a side note, I feel like I am nowhere near to mastering.)
The problem is it’s really difficult for me to tell the difference between needing to be in the feminine energy of Receiving and when that tips into procrastination. And when I’m supposed to be in the masculine energy of action and when that tips into forcing or pushing.
I know one answer is to listen to what my Inner Wisdom is telling me — the problem is Resistance sometimes sounds like my Inner Wisdom.
So, for me, what I’m choosing to do at the moment is be patient with myself. I’m continuing to be quiet and listen so I can sort out Resistance from Inner Wisdom. And testing — testing the being and resting versus taking action and seeing which one feels better at any given moment.
I’ll keep you posted.
Until next time.